Prayer from October 15, 2020

Lord, 

I feel unsteady, unsecure,
like the earth is rolling beneath my feet. 
October has kept me on my toes.
I want to get lost in a book, escape.

I was afraid and overwhelmed and worried about a great many things, but you quieted those fears.
You have allowed this shift and these stressors, but you do not abandon me to it.

To where did my spirit of adventure flee?
Why have I allowed myself to burrow deep and hide?

Today was difficult.
Help me to be a good teacher: kind and judicious.

This week was difficult.
Please give me wisdom and courage as I step forward into tomorrow.

I cling to these dreams and ideas and plans for myself.
I continue to trust you in each endeavor.
You know each day,
my needs and my number of breaths.
I cannot even grow myself a centimeter taller than I am.
Your steadfast love remains faithful.

But one thing I do intend with my day's breath,
forgetting the sin or  false sense of self-sufficiency that is behind,
remembering the cross before me,
I press onward toward the goal and the upward call of Christ.

For I am your workmanship, Lord, 
may I walk through the unexpected
with joy and strength.
Even in times of tumult, you remain who you are.

amen.