Prayer from December 11, 2008

God,

Thank you for your death and your blood, which covers a multitude of sins.
Thank you for the friendships and relationships that you have blessed me with.
Help me to relinquish my hold and worry over others.
I just have to trust that you will make it right.
Forgive me for investing so much into worrying over this rather than trusting you, the Almighty Creator.

I can't keep trying to do this on my own.
Mostly because it is obviously not working.

Lord, what I need is to have faith that you will make it right.
Trusting you has always been so hard for me.

I love you.


God, I am lonely. Please give me close friends here.*
You have blessed me with an amazing family back home.

Forgive me for my judgmental attitude and stubborn pride.
Will you help me to not dwell on my worries?

You are forever just and faithful.
Please do not give up on X, who has tasted the goodness of heaven, who belongs to you.
Bring X back to you. I worry so much about this person.

Still, I have to trust in you.
Still, I love you.
Psalm 13 is my prayer.

amen.



*Freshman year of college was difficult, and I was very shy. It was not easy to make friends. 

Sometimes, this weird thing happens: I'm standing next to someone when my mind goes blank. Weird because I am a good nervous rambler.

So, I stand there, awkwardly, trying to think of something to say, only to come up with the most unhelpful topics like Freud or how to get food out of your teeth if you don't have floss. 

If you've ever had to suffer through this, ugh, I'm sorry. If you've stuck around in spite of this, thank you for loving me.